Office Heaven

Joe Burns rubbed his eyes with his small, grubby hands, pausing for just a moment. He then looked down at this insignificant, eight-and-one-half by eleven piece of paper that would spell his effective doom as a career corporate executive. The fine print made it sound like he was buying a car; it was filled with legal platitudes describing the obligation of the Company for a limited time and with limited means to provide with him with a modest income. It was like standing on a chopping block, preparing to lay his head on its bloody surface, and let the guillotine fall. It was the demise of the man Joe Burns, of everything he had been since his ancient college days.
"OK, well..." Joe intoned, not wanting to look up at me. The dark-green gold tipped fountain pen lay limp in his hand, unwilling to sign the deed and end his corporate existence. A few seconds passed.
"Why..." he asked, hesitantly.
He looked up at me, with a tinge of desperation in his face. Joe maintained a jolly demeanor while he was in the office; it was one trait that helped him to rise to his position and earn himself a reputation as a legendary manager. But now he looked at me sadly, intently, unable to express the words that wanted to come out.
"We could have found some way to compromise." Joe's tone was assertive, even paternal, as though he uttering a common fact that had simply been overlooked.
Now it was my turn to sigh. Joe had managed himself well during this crisis; even when the board recommended he resign, and gave me the task of informing him of their decision, he had accepted the news with a solid measure of professional reserve. It was clear now that the decades of accumulated manners was finally wearing off, and frankly, I did not want to be in the room to see it happen. The whole business was distasteful, and I was sorry to have had to have anything to do with it.
"Joe, you know Fred, Craig, Ed, and everyone else on the board did what they had to do, and before that, they did everything they could do." I put my hands on his desk, facing him, to emphasize the point. "Its time to sign and get this over with."
Joe sat in the chair and twiddled the pen in his hands. He was wearing a dark olive green shirt with a dark forest green tie, and his sports jacket was slung over the back of his chair. His hair was balding; sparse hair surrounded his balding spot. His office smelled of stale cigarette smoke, a sin he indulged in because he was high enough to get around company policy. I had never much liked being in here, and was relieved, in part, that Joe would soon be leaving this office, whether or not I would be the one to fill it.
Suddenly Joe pounded the desk with his meaty fists.
"The hell you can tell me what to do!" he barked, menacingly. I backed up, unsure what to do.
Joe got out of his chair so fast it nearly fell over. His parted hair bounced from the quick movement.
"The hell you know what it means what I've done here!" he retorted again, his voice commanding, though not yelling. I backed up a few inches, and quickly looked over that the door, which was unfortunately closed.
"Joe, I..." My face was blushing, I could feel it. I had no training, no professional frame of reference to deal with this situation.
Joe stared, his beady brown eyes fixing me with a menacing look. I looked at him for a few seconds, and then looked away. This office suddenly seemed suffocatingly small. Finally, I made up my mind. If I did not say something, I was going to have to consider bolting for the door, because this could easily get out of hand.
"Just let go, Joe, just let go." I tried to take control of the situation. I edged closer to the desk, and gingerly put my hands on his shoulders, and stared him straight in the face.
Joe was a bit put off by my gesture, as I normally maintained a reserve around people, especially concerning physical touch. He did not quite know how to react, and stared at me incredulously, his eyes now wide.
Slightly emboldened, I repeated my mantra.
"Just let go, Joe, just let go."
Then I said something that for a thousand years I wish I had not.
"She's not worth it to you, Joe, that woman, let her go, Martha will take you back."

The doctor was quite comforting later that evening, assuring me that all I had was a black eye and a few contortions on my face, and that surgery was not needed, as had been feared. All the blood had scared the paramedics, who thought that my jaw had been broken. The pain was now thankfully numbed by the ice pack that I pressed to my face, and with a few aspirin I should be able to sleep the night away.

Temptation

The useful thing about being a bachelor is that you can feed yourself anything, and feel quite content no matter what it is. Jealousy and dissatisfaction requires at least two people.
George sat on the dark metal park bench, the same park bench he sat on every Thursday instead of staying inside 1204 N. Queens. It was a small park wedged in the middle of 7th Avenue, just large enough to create a laid back atmosphere, a small bubble of leaves, sighing trees and green grass. A few ragged homeless men had their park benches always staked out, covered in newspapers, but George's bench was never taken. He had been sitting in it for most of the summer, and now it was turning into fall. It faced out to the street, and allowed George the privilege of munching on a ham and cheese sandwich (occasionally corn beef, and occasionally turkey and swiss) while watching New Yorkers pursuing their daily business.
This, to George, was like watching a living mirror. He also wore a suit, he also impatiently checked his watch stepping out of the subway every morning. He also pretended to stare resolutely ahead while wondering if anyone was watching him, and anxious to know what they thought. What amazed George more than anything was how each of these businesspeople who walked by, as educated, smart and talented as he was, would be almost without a doubt lonely and need of others. The men with their silver attache cases and Armani suits--if they were anything like George--as weak as little children on the inside.
Ham and cheese has a taste that reminded him of sitting in his kitchen as a young boy, drinking coolade as he had just come out from the hot, sweaty sun. His brother would swing his legs as he sat across from him. They had finished an intense game of baseball, so intense that they had almost gotten into a fight with the neighbor boys at the end, and had only been prevented from coming to blows by his mother's call for lunch.
George's mind snapped back to reality. He realized that right now, today, he was quite nostalgic. He didn't want to be trapped in that cycle again, it could last for days.
A woman, mid-twenties, in a black suit and white shirt, walked down the street. She was tall, had long, flowing black hair and wore significant heels. Like most women George had met in New York who wore suits, her jaw was set firmly and her jet black eyes were determinedly fixed ahead at the upcoming intersection. It was a small wonder to George that he rarely found anything in common with them, and George pondered what kind of man could actually handle a woman like that.
George wiped his forehead on his sleeve. It was five to one, almost time to go in.
And time to stop the reverie. George got up, dusted off the crumbs, took one look around the wistful trees, and said softly, "Two years - not bad. Not bad, really."

Swimming Upriver

Walking outside my small crummy white house, I
Turn and walk up the road, sloshing through concrete.

I swim in a pool of blue water delimited by high
Glass walls. Endlessly around, through the plants and peat,

Within the enclosure, with bubbles all around, my suit
Gets wet. Others swim by, the grocer, the accountant,

The pop star, the unemployed factory worker, all moot;
As far as forward movement -- always hesitant.

Its easy to swim in circles, its easy to grab the wriggling legs that scoot
In front of you, afraid of being forced to recant

The orthodoxy you were born in,
The orthodoxy of the horn-rimmed glasses and the pointed nose.